Surprised....

I can't friggin' believe this!!!!! I got a mail from my ex after three whole months just to ask me how I'd fared in IIT!!!!! Wow, people are so IIT crazed.....eeeks!!! Anyways I haven't talked about my love life yet, have I? And now's is as good as any other time. So basically I've had exactly 3 proposals all within a duration of one year. I know, i know....too hurried!!! So, my first ever boyfriend was a guy called shridhar(the one who mailed). There's quite a story there. One day I got a text from some unknown guy who claimed to be my classmate in sixth standard....well, I started chatting with him and we discovered we had a common interest for poetry and books. We were like almost tailor made for each other....i thought the guy was perfect. And then I found out he was not my classmate but a friend of my classmate's...i was livid!!! Still he begged and begged for a second chance and I relented. So eventually he proposed and I agreed(we hadn't even met once). We had a great relationship...he came to visit me just once and we had a hell of a date. Everything was going perfect...in fact it was too good to be true utill Anagha dropped on the scene. Meet Anagha....Shridhar's ex classmate whom he had a crush on. So Anagha got transferred to Delhi whare shri lived and he decided he still had a thing for her. Well he told me so and also told me that he loves me too...I was obviously confused. So, I told him shri you're free to go because I don't want you to feel imprisoned or something. And lo and behold! Mr. Shridhar and Anagha are a couple and poor I was left on the sidelines. Uh..huh...i gotta go now....rest of my screwed up lovelife later!!!!!

DISASTER

Wow...I'm dying...mom's gonna kill me!!!!!!!! IIT results came out yesterday and wonders of wonders I didn't clear it!!!!!! My mom was sooo mad she kept on shouting at me the whole day.....I JUST HATE MY PARENTS!!!!! Who the hell do they think they are??? Fine I didnt clear IIT, its not the end of the world...there are other entrances i've cleared...but no, that doesn't matter!!!! All that matters is my result should be better than the neighbour's son....god, i've alreday started hating that guy even though I don't even know him.....I just can't take this anymore...I WANT TO DIE!!!!!! Bloody kill me man....what use is this life???? My mother has to be better than the neighbour....that's what life is about!!!!! DAMNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

20 may...

Been kinda busy of late....had dozens of articles to submit...trying to earn money to buy  a lappy!!!!!! Anyways....the AFMC results came out today and wonders of wondres I didn't pass...hahaha.....I already knew that...just can't bear to be a doctor!!! Haven't told mom yet....dreading the moment when I'd have to tell....there'd be some major disaster definitely....man, can my life be any more messed up??? I don't know how I'm gonna survive in this house now that its time for all the results to start coming. If I don't clear engineering my parents are gonna kill me....its not as if they'd let me do what I want...nah that won't happen ever...not even if I flunk every damned exam!!!!!!!! I just wish there was more to my life than this usual stupid and meaningless stuff.

16 MAY

Just finished writing some articles and I've got a terrible headache brewing. Well today was nothing special.....got up at four and realised I hadn't completed some articles I had to submit at 6...you can Imagine what happened then....finished those articles in a mad rush. I just hate staying at home....mom doesn't even let me sleep late. My parents are so IRRITATING!!! They keep on shouting at me to get off the computer...I mean what else is there to do??? And if I'm reading they tell me to go out.....dude, don't they get it that I don't wanna go out...wish they'd leave me alone. And then there's this whole Engineering Medical melodrama. My mother and father just get started on my career and the conversation will be something like, 
MOM: She'll become a doctor. (mom, i don't want to) Don't worry beta you'll clear your entrance(no, i won't)!
DAD: We'll make her a mechanical engineer(ugh). 
MOM: Yeah when are your results coming? We'll see which branch you'll join. 
God, I hate this conversations. They talk as if I'm not even there. No one asks me whether I WANT to become an engineer or a doctor....nah, who cares, she's a kid she can't decide, let's do it for her!!!
Everyday at home is an agony. I never even wated to take science....just because I'm extremely good at studies everyone EXPECTED me take science so I did....I really really want to do English honours or clinical psychology....but do my parents care???
I just wish July comes soon so that I'll be at college even if it'll be one I never wanted to join it'll be better than home at least.

Day one....

Okay not exactly the first day of  my life but yeah the first day of my blog so it's kinda big day. Before I start I'd like to tell you why I've started writing. Obviously to vent...people just don't get me...well, even I don't get myself at times(It's not funny,trust me). So I thought my life will make more sense If i pen it down.....fine type it out!!!! and yeah before you start getting bored, its time for Introductions!!!! Welcome to the MY WORLD....an ordinary life of an extraordinary girl!!! Well, I'm exactly 19 years, 1 month and 9 days old. I just gave my engineering exams and am waiting for the results. I love reading....it is the one one constant in my life!!!! I write poems and articles and am planning to write a story sometime in the near(or distant) future. I've got a younger brother, lots of friends and no best friend. My mum is a housewife and my father is in the Army. So that's it, a short intro to my life.